- At that point my shock/humiliation/fear turned to anger, I got more forceful telling him he needed to unlock the door
- He went and got the keys but still wouldn't unlock
- I had to emotionally counsel him saying it's alright, it's just a miscommunication, I wouldn't report him
- Even had to hug him before he would open the door
- Spent the next ~24hrs drinking & smoking (which I hardly EVER do) #nsfw

- I felt fucking horrible, like my body was rebelling against me, and I quickly got up to get dressed. Trying to play it off like "wow that's enough I need to go" rather than "what the FUCK how dare you do that without warning or asking me"
- The guy immediately started apologising, saying that he thought I'd enjoy it, didn't realise I would take it badly... began shaking and crying
- The front door was locked
#nsfw

- ..a gut feeling that he was making it sexual, I quickly suppressed that thought because I wanted to be open minded.
- But eventually the touching became less and less "relaxing massage" and more "is he trying to jerk me off?"
- I eventually concluded that resisting wouldn't be a smart idea (I'm fully naked remember, and as I'd later find out the front-door was locked) so I decided to 'finish'
- Immediately...
#nsfw

#nsfw

- I went to a "free massage" offered on Couchsurfing.com. I hadn't used CS before, but my first experience was really good - a lovely Brazilian girl (pic attached) let me stay in her house for a week
- When I got there it started off legitimate, though orange flag #1 it was at his house, and orange flag #2 he asked me to get fully nude
- I wasn't used to this kind of physical touch, and although I did have...

I posted it on my now.txt, but I didn't share it publicly anywhere else yet - I recently got sexually assaulted. I'm not looking for a shoulder to cry on or to be dramatic. But I figure some people might find it interesting/helpful. Details below #nsfw

#nowlistening #newzealand #australia https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IA-1PbsAZnU

Rooftop of Sao Paulo, one of the coolest cities I've ever visited

glitch gif version https://media.giphy.com/media/lnO4fs6c4Y9zQhAvJj/giphy.gif

in Ribeirão Preto yesterday (I almost got arrested for this photo, apparently you're not allowed to be so close to the water)

in Lisbon 2 months ago

Just updated my now.txt https://jamesscaur.keybase.pub/now.txt
I replace it every 2 weeks. Inspired by @sivers.

#nowlistening https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKvpnuUQY0E

Pros to social media (if used to build a public identity):
- Job/investment offers
- People will spring to help you with different stuff if they see you have a problem
- Exposure to new ideas

Cons to social media:
- Advertisements and content designed to waste your time
- Easier to mindlessly post rather than do real-world stuff
- Distracts from personal reflection & goals
- Comparison anxiety, outrage culture

Social media holiday is becoming easier the longer I stay off. But I know from spending 2016-17 off, it isn't good for building/maintaining a public identity. So I gotta weigh up the pros/cons.

interesting... chris brown?

Helped them apply for YC https://youtu.be/1vljSxNrd8k

Met Alex today, CEO of a Brasilian agritech company focused on turning unsustainably farmed / underutilized land into profitable farms, with AI. Great dude

It's wild how almost every important service you use allows you API access...

... Except your bank.

Realised just how spoiled I've been with transparent, easy to use, easy to connect cryptocurrency.

And yet me and my blockchain friends complain about it being tricky. Lol

warning, it is somewhat warm @bevan

same

worth it

not yet

Just updated my now.txt https://jamesscaur.keybase.pub/now.txt
I replace it every 2 weeks (*months in this case, whoops). Inspired by @sivers.

Brasil is great and I am seriously considering moving here. Sure there's crime and the politics are messy, but no one told me how great the culture is. One of the most untouched and beautiful places on Earth. And a lot of opportunity for improvement, some big problems to fix.

Began another social media holiday earlier last week. FOMO and loneliness already setting in despite having plenty of social contact. This stuff creeps up on you...

Tudo bem, mas eu ainda tem muitos coisas para aprender

Programming

Monday: too hot to work during day.
Begin at 7pm when it begins to cool down... end up going til 4am.
Sleep on a hammock.

Tuesday: get woken up at 6:30am on said hammock by dog licking my slightly open mouth. Instantly alert.
Have breakfast, slackline for an hour listening to Iron Maiden.
Volunteer at local university.
At 4pm decide to nap.

Wednesday: apparently my nap was 15 hours.
Beautiful morning.
#brazil

Still jamming in their 70s.. https://youtu.be/6rRopxSk45g

My Peepeth use has directly decreased/increased in proportion to my use/lack of use of Twitter. They serve the same purpose of shortform info exchange. So it is a competition. For me Peepeth's no 1 obstacle to beating Twitter is lack of reach.

Originally I used both equally, finding the content here more interesting, but my priority has changed from interesting content to meeting people and building relationships.

Was only a few days... now in Brasil 🇧🇷 much better (and safer) than expected...

Have been horribly neglecting my Peepeth account, sorry @Bevan... Lisbon is beautiful! Onboarding a new user now

Just realised I never drunk wine once in the U. K... poor form. Good reminder

Just touched down in Lisbon!

After a 5 hour nap on the terminal benches, it's now a beautiful early morning sunrise.

@lostrapt @theblockcafe @capitalism @zepcp @Oleg @alexmc you all still living in Lisbon?

@theblockcafe in particular ur place looks cool, might swing by @ 10am

unfortunate thumbnail

Message for peepers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaytyEed9iw&feature=youtu.be

#workbeats https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-iQXG02LDM

> "It's kind of like I'm being rewarded for my irresponsibility," said the 24-year-old university student who's being forgiven a $1,300 debt.

Crazy times.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/business/chase-bank-amazon-visa-marriott-credit-card-debt-1.5239411

@bevan how old is peepeth.com?

Nearly all my old workmates have abandoned crypto or are just doing small scale trading of BTC-Fiat to get a living. Only 3 including me have started working at other crypto companies

Wow - I just got a notification that TxBatch.com is up for renewal. I only bought it when I got blessing to start it as a “side hustle”, and shortly after chose to go full time... which means it’s been a year of doing this... the company I worked for now bankrupt, my original idea a dud, working with a cofounder I have never met in person, lived in 5 new countries, and 99% of my net-worth now in crypto. Wild...

If anyone can recommend me a good Quran and/or Bhagavad Gita translation please let me know, too! I'm also curious about traditional practises like Tarot/dream interpretation... how we throughout history have made sense of life

As part of trying to understand more cultures, I'm reading the bible. A lot of good stuff here... my interpretation of this is "do what you're made to do, not what others want you to do."

Christ is an ideal, right? The highest value, god in human form? Well it makes sense that you are serving the highest value when you do what you're made to do. Is the "inheritance" meaning/fulfilment?

@bravenewcoin is back on Peepeth!

Poor Americans...

✅ oldschool animations
✅ lofi
✅ eerie vocals
✅ good bass
yep, this is weird and I like it
https://youtu.be/0RXdd0pCJ9Q

Love this! Making crypto easier. Thanks @abcoathup

Dylan Frost (frontman Sticky Fingers) has gotta be one of my favourite vocalists, if not my favourite: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzHouyi6t4g

Joris Voorn ‎– Balance 014. Of course it comes from Australia, the home of the best #rave parties: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yQLGtE4og2g

Explosions in the Sky - The Earth Is Not a Cold Dead Place (2003): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ziw4yd5R0QI

One of the greatest all-purpose albums of all time.